Most recently, I have decided to not move to the New England area but to move to northern Michigan which is probably one of most hardest decisions ever. Moving up north was/is the last thing I ever thought I would do.
Why? You ask. A few days ago, I had a strong sensation that couldn’t be ignored. I have had them before so I was familiar with the drill. Felt like a trance in a Holy way. Everything changed. Wiped out all of my information regarding Connecticut kinda hurt. Experienced the event before I moved to Texas so I knew that I would be here despite obstacles
Moving back up north, I believe that I will find peace back living near the water again and I will be able to ride my bike with freedom like I did years ago. As far as some relationships go, I have not kept in touch with many and I have not attended any of my class reunions which some are mad at me.
To move with a clear conscience, I am admitting my wrong doing to people who I have had problems with. One is avoiding me, one made things worse and the last got a letter because of no social media presence with no response as of yet. None of them are aware of my plans. One mentioned that I haven’t attended any reunions which is true. The one who made things worse denied the conflict between us years ago then questioned my decision to fix things felt belittled.
On the whole, I never felt like I belonged despite being involved in high school such as yearbook, cheerleading and downhill racing. I had made every effort to be kind and nice but my free spirit was the problem with making friends. I felt alone with criticism from my family, my loneliness turned into motivation to move far away from there.
On the weird side of things, I have become friends with one of the former schoolmates who were considered the toughest and the meanest. Previously, she made a few jabs at me that were honest and truthful statements about me and the situation which to her surprise. I owned up and I agreed to them. We have since become friends that only her husband is aware of. We have agreed to meet up for adult beverages after my move that will cause a stir in the little town for sure but it’s fine.
Choosing the path most difficult will hopefully give the best outcome. Keeping my Faith and moving forward.
Leslie Elizabeth David.